I can feel people judging me at work and after work, i can feel that people are still judging me but the fact is that they are not. Just thinking it alone makes me depressed.
I slept early last night because i was really tired and couldn't stop thinking about what is going on at work. Like the scenes of office is constantly repeating and repeating in my mind.
I know that nothing can be changed by just worrying alone. Sometimes its my fault but sometimes i don't know the reason that if people are too sensitive or i am too insensitive. Some of the jokes i say can actually be offending to people but talking like that with my friends is kinda okay for me and they are able to inteprete it as a joke. Then i thought to myself. Is it the rank barrier in people that cause the pride and i am hurting their pride. I don't know the answer but now for sure i wouldn't act like myself in front of the people who is not close to me.
For those who don't appreciate the jokes from me, then let's not be friends nor enemies, just working colleagues.
Of what i told Shone yesterday and the way he responded makes me feel that he really understands what i've been going through. Thanks for being such a great friend.
It is not easy to bring myself back a little but Mich didn't really understand whats going on the most because you aren't in my work place, but you never fail to brighten up my mood one bit.
So glad to have you. :)
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Dear, really glad to be by your side listening to all of it =) Thanks for letting me by the fortunate one
Love you!
you'll always be the fortunate one. :)
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